ALL I EVER NEEDED

Here's to you, 

My Soul Mate and Dearest Companion

Because it is true

And it is true.... because there is a lot that is cool about being a boy.

I realized this better when I started raising one.

Girls Rock, 

but boys are also pretty special.

All the coolest girls have a bit of boy energy in them,

and it's about time someone said so.

Even if no one else smiles at you.. the sky will x

I've Missed you...

and I love you always..

I'm finishing up the book I have written and can't wait to share!!

I don't know what I want to talk about... just that I want to talk, and share, and be. Here... with you today. 
I think that life gets richer and then even richer still. It can be stagnant and then still. 
But it continues on somehow. Constantly. Weaving energy in and out of the choices you are making moment to moment. 
It breathes with you; inhaling and exhaling as you do. And it laughs with you... whenever you are laughing, and sometimes when you are not. I don't believe that life has been cruel to me. It has only been consistent. With every place I am in my life, it unfolds as I have... when it isn't unfolding, it is because I am not either.....
I have moments I wish I could relive with people I will never spent time with again.
I have much to create with people I will no doubt be connected to for years to come.
All that I feel is beautiful is still within me.  
I try to remember that the thoughts I am generating have a direct effect on my happiness and what happens to me. 
Life seems to give you what you need, over what you want... If you are lucky, you get both..

I don't believe that "all things come to an end". I think the mind is a powerful tool, so long as you patronize it. I think that your life, your memories, you thoughts live on for as long as you feed them the breath of your soul. I think that your love for a thing or person doesn't end either; it is endless and as strong and as beautiful as it was the first time you allowed yourself to feel it.
I think very few people are courageous enough to carry on thinking, feeling and loving a thing. It can carry a badge of hurts that temporarily pain you... but there is something beautiful and authentic in that. Certain things in your memory are for always, no matter how much they are "felt". 
Not "all things come to an end"..... even when they do...

5 WIVES...

So I have this weird and probably scary interest in these polygamy programs on the TLC Network.
I want to see it work! I want to see something new, that I can believe in. Monogamous relationships are difficult enough and I am constantly curious as to how these people do this… I currently finished the Sister Wives series (via DVR) and I began recording the My Five Wives series. Jesus H Christ is it amazing that in the name of God these women have signed up for a life where they are allotted a small amount of time with their husband AND they get to be a witness to his undeniable physical chemistry with other women. A chemistry that produces more and more and MORE children. Amazing. I actually find the Sister Wives show to be a lot easier to watch because although there are visible jealousies and personality conflicts, at least Sister Wives is a show about a polygamous family that is actually open in communication. These women (for the most part) like and even love each other. The My Five Wives series is utterly depressing, as you see five women with almost no connection to each other, shriveling down into these mute and numb beings who can not communicate with each other  properly, and whom harbor massive resentments towards each other. It is actually really sad. They are all so emotionally repressed and their self esteem is non existent. Their poor husband, whom I quite like, is incredibly empathetic and compassionate to all of these ticking-time-bombs he is responsible for. I don't know that any of them are happily married. Everyone seems to just be coping….
Of course I will watch on, and see what develops, but I honestly don't get any enjoyment out of watching a bunch of unheroic women "sicking out" a marriage that is 80% unfulfilling in the name of something… holy. I don't find it at all inspirational, only educational in that it redefines perhaps what an unsatisfactory lifestyle choice this is for most. Twizz